Hey, May!

I never know how to begin. And I know I say this every time I write... but I really need to get better with this thing! 

I had to stop going to WW because of money. The week I stopped going, is the week the new insurance coordinator for Dr. Rutledge's office called me. She called to introduce herself and also tell me that I was really close to having surgery. She asked some information and told me she would get back to me. About a week later she called to tell me that they are ready to submit it to insurance, but they needed an updated height/weight. So on my off day I ran in there and did that. Turns out in the one year I've been through this process I only gained 2 lbs. when technically I gained 16 and lost 14. Anyway, now we are waiting on insurance's final approval. I'm nervous.  I've never been good with surgery... and I have this overwhelming, unheathly fear of death. The surgery date is June 24 (just 2 days before Sammy's 5th birthday)

The boys are doing good. We had some issues with Isaiah and being teased/bullied, but that seems to be worked out now too.  They are both in Tae Kwon Do and doing wonderfully! Isaiah tested and got his Yellow belt last month and Sammy is testing for his yellow belt in his Tiny Tigers class this month. SOOO thankful that there are only 3 weeks left of school. Isaiah got his first B ever last quarter. He was pretty upset.  But he's still an extremely thoughtful and smart kiddo. 

oh my stars. My 4 year old just broke my heart. He told me I had to marry him when I got older. But then he said "But you have to exercise to lose weight, because I don't like girls with big bellies to marry me." 

So while my heart was crushed under his little lime green Sketcher, I mustered up the strength to explain to him that appearance shouldn't matter, it is what's on the inside that counts. ::sighs::
This is the second time this month I've been faced with someone small criticizing my weight. thing is... even though I know they are innocent -ish kids... it still hurts my feelings.  This should motivate me to get better, but instead it makes me want to wallow in my own self pity. :(